Hey Hey （✿ ͡◕ ᴗ◕)つ━━✫・*。
It’s been a while _(ˇωˇ」∠)_
Lots of things have happened since July and let me tell you… the biggest one is that I got laid off. I’d like to say that it came outta nowhere but I def had an inkling back in July when our account had expired. Then on the last Friday of August, I was laid off.
The worst part was that I wasn’t even notified by my boss… my recruiting agency told me via email that today was my last day and I was like whaaaaaaa- (?_?✿). I messaged my boss and he was like yeahhhhh sorry bout that but u got laid off. He said it a lil more professionally and nicely but it still hurt me that he didn’t have the balls to say it to my face and that’s how I had to find out. I like cried a lil bit because I was shocked and scared u know, I had bills and rent to pay and I was not ready financially to handle these things without a job.
Thankfully I was approved for unemployment pay and I’m still lookin for a new job sooo fingers crossed and God willing I’ll find something even better! (✿◠‿◠)
It’s not all bad after a week of being laid off I went to the library to… idk just be there really and study whatever I wanted, it was nice I went to some events at the library too! It felt good just to be there, my child self really felt at peace there. Lo and behold there were some job opportunities at the various libraries out here in Vegas! Of course I applied but I haven’t heard back yet, God willing I hope I get a job at the library. The deadline for applying is coming close and we’ll see, hopefully, I hear back period. Just so I can know what was the end result.
I also found this woman’s bible study a week n a half after I got laid off. If I had my job I def could not have gone in the morning! It truly was a blessing in disguise (✿◠‿◠), even tho I lost my job I was grateful to have this time to get closer to God and my famil. As well as have time to do the things I want! I’ve always had a hard time finding a good church. Its so hard trying to find one with people who do judge you or try to weirdly flex on you with their im holier than thou attitude.
It clearly says in the bible do not judge others (Matthew 7:1-5) bc were just as bad if not worse. And spreading hate/hating on certain groups is not okay. God is not a God of hate but a God of Love. Spreading love is important, even outside of Christianity, there’s so much hate and negativity in the world, so why not spread love instead? Easier said than done I know but it doesn’t hurt to try frfr. (1 John 4:16, 4:8, and 4:19)
Even tho shit hit the fan in my life I felt the need to get closer to God, I was so grateful to still have my health, my family, and for Him saving me during some dark times I knew I had to get closer to Him. It also helped ease the anxiety that came with all of this, I am a very anxious person tbh and knowing that God has something special planned for me makes me feel better and I don’t need to control every aspect of my life anymore.
That’s not to say I’m not doin shit, I’m still applying and workin on myself at this time. I am grateful for this blessing in disguise. I’ve been spending more time with my fam and friends and it feels sooooo good to have their support during these hard ass times. Also working in corporate America is fuckin soul crushing bro. Like it literally sucks the life outta u until your a shell of yourself.
Anyway, I got a wedding I’m going to next week! And I’m very excited to celebrate my good friend getting married! I haven’t been invited to a wedding before and I’m excited for my friend♡(◕ᗜ◕✿) shes such a nice person and one of the first friends I made out here in Vegas, she’s the fuckin best. We’ll be staying there for an extra day since it’s out in the forests or something, so it’ll be nice to explore! (◕◞౪◟◕✿) We’ll be takin out pupper too! It wouldn’t be the same without her!
That’s my big ass update I’m trying to edit the pics from August and Sept but its sooooooooo much bro (ᵕ̣̣̣̣̣ ہ ᵕ̣̣̣̣̣̣ ✿) I’ll get around to posting it!